Restless Between My Ears

There are days and there are days!!!

2009-05-07T02:25:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was such a day. Bumped into someone on gtalk and it rekindled old memories.

She is still the same and so differently refreshing from others. I am posting the chat that transpired between us. The names and other details have been edited out. But nothing has been added by me :)

12:23 PM Girl: hii

12:24 PM me: hey

how are u?

Girl: im good

me: gud 2....thx

wats up with u girl?

12:25 PM Girl: bas yaar...usual office and things

u tell me wot u upto these days/

where r u?

me: I am in Bangalore....doing my internship with a PE firm

12:26 PM where r u working?

Girl: wot?

ur in bangalore????

u gotta be kiiding me

me: I am here

arrived 20 days back

12:27 PM Girl: n u dint bother tellin me...

me: hmmm.....

bad me...

I know

Girl: where is ur office

me: Kormangala Embassy Golf Links Business Park

Girl: ohhh fuckkkkk

now ur really jokin man

12:28 PM me: lol

dont tell me ur in the same office complex :)

Girl: not me but xxx is

i live 5 mins walkin distance from there

me: oh wow

Girl: yesss

12:29 PM i come there atelast 3 times a day

me: haha

my office is in XXX

Girl: which co. is this?

me: XXX...its a PE firm

Girl: ohh okie

me: nice...I think I saw th GS office 2 days...is it close to that Food Court?

Girl: yeah

they ahve quite a few buildings there

12:31 PM xxx n one more

me: hmmm

Girl: shitt..

me: and where r u working?

Girl: i really cant believe this

im working with an organisation called XXX

12:32 PM it works on eduction and emplyability

me: interesting

Girl: my office is XXX

me: ohh...ok... I have lots of friends in that office

12:33 PM Girl: okie i don sit in the XXX office but in the same complex, thats where i sit

me: whoaaa.

not bad

Girl: ohh yess..now i remmeber

kool

n where do u stay here in bangalore

me: staying at IIM B

Girl: ohh thats pretty far off from here

12:35 PM me: yep...but manageable...I catch this bus 201R...or if I am feeling real lazy I take an auto

Girl: hahah

okie

shittt i really cant believe the world is this smalll

12:36 PM me: lol

yeah

Girl: we must catch up some time

me: and I guess Blore is real small....I have bumped into a couple of friends already

Girl: wot r ur office timings/

yeah

its efinitely much much smaller than delhi

but ur like right there

12:37 PM me: hahha

I work from 9-6

Girl: i come to the Business park by ard 6:45 -7

me: but I am mighty screwed these days...need some divine intervention with my work

hmmm

we can surely catch up

12:38 PM me: okie

Girl: hahhaha

why?

wot happ..

me: just dont feel like working :(

Girl: hahahha

same usual stufff

lets catch up seriously

12:39 PM actually u shud come home one of the days...

me: hmmm

Girl: seriously

me: we will meet for sure

I guess I have ur Blore number

lemme see

12:40 PM Girl: gimme a missed call

i don think i have urs

me: haha

of course u dont have mine :P

Girl: as in wanst sure if ur using the del no..

12:41 PM u remember that rahul dasari from bus?

12:42 PM me: yep of course

ur no is XXX?

Girl: yess

he is here too

r u in touch with him?

12:43 PM me: nope

Girl: hmmm

okie

me: he is with Nokia right?

Girl: yesss

i think soo from the last conversation i had with him

which was some 6 months ago

me: haha

got my number?

Girl: yess

12:44 PM me: cool...my delhi no is working 2

Girl: okie kool

soo lets catch up sometime for sure

me: pucca

Girl: we can do somethin next weeknd

not the one comin

but after that

me: yep...next weekend sounds good

12:45 PM and I will keep my eyes open...might just see u near my office :)

Girl: hahha

yeah

i travel in blue colour I10

me: hahah

Girl: with the broken number plate

12:46 PM u cant miss that

me: lol lol lol

gr8 2 talk 2 u again girl....u have really cheered me up

12:47 PM Girl: hehehhe

nice......

me: so...catch u soon...I am going 2 the food court

ciao

Girl: okie kool

bbyeeeee

me: c ya

Quickie

2009-05-04T20:34:00.000-07:00

It is early morning here and I could not resist the urge to post something.

Well, I have accepted my fate and I guess I will stop trying now. I am going to leave everything in the hands of almighty and see how things go themselves. There are things which you can push only to a certain extent and beyond that you do not have any control over them.

I am not really a go-getter, although I used to be one and that too a real big one. But for now, I gotta let go.

Motto: No expectations, no heartbreaks!

Cheers to.........moi :) !!!!

Still Waiting

2009-05-04T04:46:00.000-07:00

Time for some update on my previous blog.

My phone calls did lead to some indirect impact. Got a call from someone and things moved. In fact it was a really nice surprise and did make me feel much better.

But the elusive gal is yet to call. Called again and asked her to get in touch with me. But she still hasn't rung up. I don't know what's on her mind. I am still hoping.

It reads like a really cryptic blog, but that's what it is supposed to be.

PS: If it does not happen now, I really doubt if it will ever happen.

Sach Hai Ki Dil To Dukha Hai

2009-04-30T04:22:00.000-07:00

I am blogging after a long long time.

Something is making me blog again as I sit in my Bangalore office. The reason is: boy meets real cute girl. They talk, they are both interested in each other. They both make plans to meet again and they exchange numbers.

But then the girl refuses to take calls or reply to smses. Dont know what has transpired in one day. But for the moment all I can say is "Sach hai ki dil to dukha hai"

Miss you gal, waiting for your call even as I type this post. Feeling like this after a long time. I guess the last time I felt the same was in Dec 2006. Maybe God won't be relenting this time around.

Going on a 3 day trip today evening, but feeling wretched.

Wedding Season

2008-02-06T01:43:00.000-08:00

The wedding season is on full swing here in North India and 2 of my cousins have decided to take the plunge.
One of them is my cousin sister, my bua's daughter who is marrying a bong guy. My sister is amongst the most beautiful females that I have seen and has a striking resemblance to Aishwarya Rai (aint that unbelievable). The guy with whom she is getting married to is her college time sweetheart and a real nice guy. He is just the perfect guy whom you would love your parents to meet, the polished and sophisticated kinds. So I am really happy for her and looking forward to attending the wedding ceremony of 10th Feb. Another thing that is making me await the wedding is my black bandh gala which I am going to sport on the wedding. I just adore that outfit and yours truly has a feeling that he looks particularly dashing in it :)

The second big wedding of the season is that of cousin bro who is an engineer working with a software major. The guy has not been lucky enough to find a lady for himself and hence is stepping upon the good old tradition of arranged marriage. But he has struck gold and his mom has found from him a ravishing girl with very impressive degrees to boot.
I often wonder if not for arranged marriages, what would happen to many poor guys. To be continued.....

Jaane Kya Dhoondta Hai, Ae Mera Dil

2008-02-06T01:18:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking a lot these days about my bigger purpose in life, about the meaning of my existence.

There are days when I feel that I just want to do my MBA and then retire for the rest of my life. MBA because, I have received rejects for the last 3 years and I want to prove (to myself) that I belong there. Money is something which does not motivate me beoyond providing me enough to be able to support me and my mom, comfortably. But will I be able to lead 2 years of my MBA life like a saint, not expecting anything in return from the institute and hoping to do something post MBA that I will look forward to doing everyday.

Going by the current state of my mind it seems possible and I feel sure that its not going to be money which will drive me after 2 years. My motivation to go on will be fun, enjoyment, fulfilment and a realization of my bigger purpose.

However, when I talk to my friends who are in the final stages of their MBAs, its scares the shit out of me. They are back in the rat race in which I was in the final year of my engineering college. Running after that elusive dream job, looking for the best brand name, talking to seniors, making resumes, licking the asses of arrogant recruiters......phew

I just pray that I will be able to escape this trauma when I am in the final leg of my MBA days....but I am still not sure about my fickle mind.

For the moment I can think of these beautiful lines "Jaane kya dhoondta hai, ae mera dil, Tujhko kya chaahiye zindagi, Raaste hi raaste hain, kaisa hai yeh safar, Dhoondti hain jisko nazrein, jaane hai voh kidhar

जब We Met

2008-01-03T00:10:00.000-08:00

This post is not a review of the movie Jab We Met but just an expression of the fun that I had while watching it. The movie released ages back (I think the week before Diwali) but I managed to catch it just yesterday on TV. The original CDs of the movie are out and my cable vala has been playing it on his channel religiously everyday.

So on the first night of this New Year I managed to catch around 60 minutes of the movie. What struck me most about this movie was the way in which the director has managed to capture the natural exuberance of the character "Geet" and the way in which Shahid Kapoor reacts to her outspokeness.

I think Shahid Kapoor's acting in the movie is just outstanding, his expressions are minimal but they convey his emotions brilliantly. I have a friend who is as outspoken as "Geet" and it is only after watching these movie that I have started appreciating her.

There is plenty that the movie has managed to teach me. I would never ever hesitate in doing crazy things in my life from now on, I would live with passion and try to be a person who never camouflages his emotions.

Result time - only bad news till now

2007-12-26T02:37:00.000-08:00

Well the results have started coming in....its that time of the year again
ISB has rejected me after the interview and SP Jain has rejected me before I could reach the interview.....

Next up will be CAT, not hopeful at all

Hope something good comes out of XAT and FMS

Diwali Celebrations

2007-11-22T22:23:00.000-08:00

I am really sorry for not updating my blog for the last few days. I have been really busy with various sorts of things and now the last fortnight seems to be a blur.
My sabse best friend, Mr Mandu was here in apunka ka Delhi for Diwali which really lifted my spirits. However, the busy guy that he is, it always becomes tough to catch hold of him. After some desperate efforts by me, which included ringing up his not reachable cell phone, visiting his house, searching for him in the market, I was finally able to have a tete-a-tete.
On Diwali day, me and Mandu met some of our old friends, well they were more of his friends and had become mine also during college day. We went to one of the guy's house and had a 3 hour laughing and leg-pulling session which was pue fun. Then I reached home and helped my mom light diyas had some puja and then a mouth watering dinner.
After that I went to Mandu's house and had a photo session as his dad had bought a new camera. Then had lots of mithai and burnt some crackers. All in all a simple but pleasant Diwali :)
Thanks to God for the simple pleasures in life

November 4 - Mock CAT 12 - Last One

2007-11-05T20:14:00.000-08:00

I had my last CL mock CAT and I was pretty relaxed for this one. Started with quant and then did VA and DI.
The mock was easy and my calmness really helped. My scores are:
Quant: 31
English: 75 :)
DI: 40

Cleared all the cut-offs, though was lucky with the DI cut-off as the cut-off was exactly equal to my score
Got an ALL India rank of around 39 :)

CAT here I come!!!!

November 2, 2007 - ISB Interview

2007-11-05T19:52:00.000-08:00

I had my ISB Interview scheduled for November 2, 2007 at Hotel Intercontinental, Delhi. The interview was supoosed to start at 1:30 pm. I left home pretty early, around 11:10 am and also reached the venue pretty early :). Took my mom along with me

Parking was absolutely shit and had a tough time finding a parking spot. The interviews were taking place at the business center of the hotel and waiting area was pretty small. I met another applicant over there. I cant recall his name, but he was working with Adobe and had done his engineering from HBTI. The guy was not great in communication skills but seemed to be pretty intelligent, gauging from his GMAT score of 750.

Well, the wait was not that bad and I met another stud guy. This guy had worked with the army for 10 years and was now working with ICICI Bank. The guy had a very pleasing personality, a very calming effect when he spoke and add to that a superb background. He had already converted IIM Ahmedabad PGPX....phew

We somehow killed time, and around 1:30pm we were given sheets, to write an essay on "Belief". We were supposed to write 100 words. I wanted to write a feel good essay and I think I fared pretty well.... was satisfied with what I wrote.

Then we guys were called for our interviews one by one. There were 3 panels and I was to be interviewed by panel 3. The guy from Adobe was called first for interview, then the army guy and then finally me by my panel. It seemed to me that my panel had taken a lot of time to review my application. My panel consisted of a firang by the name of Joe and an aunty, Ms Mahajan (cant recall her first name)

Aunty: Why did u leave EVS
Me: I had prepared for this one and gave a good answer
Aunty: Similarity between EVS and current job
Me: Blah blah
Aunty: How did you deal with a situation in EVS when a team member was not performing satisfactorily
Me: Blah blah
Aunty: How can you improve the training process at EVS
Me:Blah blah
Angrez: Still quiet
Aunty: Tell me more abt your current job
Me: This was the question that I was waiting for and jumped at the opportunity
Aunty: Seemed happy and asked me how industry market sizes are calculated
Me: A bit stumped but gave a good answer
Angrez: Gave another way of calculating market sizes
Me: I agreed with him and said that I had calculated it from supply side and he had calculated from demand side, both are correct
Angrez: Some questions on indian retail market and a market sizing question
Me: Answered and did calculations satisfactorily
Aunty: How good is your french and introduce yourdelf in French
Me: Did not have any fluency, but managed
Angrez: What is extraordinary about you
Me: Nothing extraordinary about me, but there are many things which are pretty good :)
Aunty: Any questions for us?
Me: I had prepared for this one
Panel: Thank you

Overall a good experience and there was a feel good factor to it. Fingers crossed....Save me God

One of my Favourite Mails

2007-10-31T03:18:00.000-07:00

Celebration means......

Four friends.

Bahar barsaat.

Four glasses of beer.

Celebration means......

Hundred bucks of petrol.

A rusty old bike.

And an open road.

Celebration means......

Maggi noodles.

A hostel room.

4.25 a.m.

Celebration means......

3 old friends.

3 separate cities.

3 coffee mugs.

1 internet messenger.

Celebration means......

Rain on a hot tin roof.

Pakoras deep-frying.

Neighbours dropping in.

A party.

You can spend Hundreds on birthdays,

Thousands on festivals,

Lakhs on weddings,

but to celebrate ..all you have to do is spend your Time with your loved ones

Boring Week

2007-10-30T20:15:00.000-07:00

Feeling really bored in this week. Just dont feel like waking up at 5am, getting ready and coming to office. Only 2 days to go for my ISB interview, feeling a whole lot of things already.

Pata nahi kya hoga, hopefully I will be able to do well....fingers crossed...I am the best :)

Weekend Travails

2007-10-30T19:52:00.000-07:00

This Sunday I woke up feeling all excited about Mock CAT 11. I had good last nights sleep (happens to me once in a blue moon) and was raring to go. Had a quick shower and breakfast and left my house earlier than usual. On the way got a PUCC and was pretty happy that I did not have to wait in a queue.
I reached Bharti Public School pretty early and there were very few souls like me who were at the venue. Since, I was feeling bored, I decided to call my friend, who also had an ISB interview call. His interview was scheduled 3 days before mine, so I was a bit inquisitive as to how his preration was chugging along. As soon as I hung up on him, I got a really disappointing news. The CL Mock CAT had been rescheduled. There was no test in the morning slot and the only available slot was 2:30pm to 5:00pm.
I felt so damn angry with the CL people for their lackadaisical attitude. These people have no proper practices in place and dont care for their students time.
Well, what to do now. I called my friend again and he suggested that I come to his place and we can fine tune our interview strategies together and also take mock interviews of each other. Luckily his house is closer the CL Mock CAT venue as compared to my house.
There we started with interviewing each other. He was able to answer my questions pretty well. Then came my turn to be interviewed. But he really blowed me apart. He thought my answers were not convincing, essays were trash, job change was not justified........

Felt pretty low after all that. I had a quick lunch at his place, along with some yummy sweets and proceeded to give my mock. The mock went just fine, not too good.
My score in English was three times my score in DI and English combined :(
Never mind, it keeps happening...hopefully on D-day I will do superbly......feeling pretty confident with CAT this time, but not so confident for my ISB interview.
Save me God

Visit to AIM Open House

2007-10-25T21:52:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I attended the Open House hosted by the Asian Institute of Management, Philippines at Hotel Hans Plaza in CP. I was planning to reach the place directly from office but changed plans and reached home instead first. The session was starting at 7pm and I reached home at 6:20 pm.
After reaching home I realised that I was already running late, had a quick change of clothes and rushed to catch the Metro to CP. The ride was nice and smooth and I listened to songs on mobile phone on the way. I managed to reach the hotel by 7:20 pm. At first glance it seemed to be a small but a decent looking hotel. I somehow managed to reach the right hall and the Open House was in full swing. An AIM professor was presenting before the audience a case for the MDM program (a program in which I had no interest at all). Everything he spoke seemed to be Greek to me and I felt extremely bored initially. But luckily he wrapped up the session in 20 minutes and then the fun started.
The next session was hosted by Professor Ricardo Linn and he spoke of the MBA and MM programs being offered by AIM. The professor was absolutely awesome and had the audience in splits with some wisecracks. He also demonstrated before us how the actual teaching takes place in AIM.
I was pretty impressed by the case study method of teaching and realised it would be absolutely great to learn in such an environment. Overall the session was pretty good and I was highly inpressed by the professor. Hopefully there will be more of his type at AIM.
The only thing which I did not like about the whole open house was the quality of Alumini which had come. They did not seem to be the kind of people whom you would like to study with nor did their job profiles seem to be very impressive.
And the best part of the session was the food and snacks that followed all the talk. I filled myself with all the grub and had some hearty laughs with my friend.
All in all a good experience.

Old Crushes

2007-10-25T00:30:00.000-07:00

Well well well, my previous post has made my mind wander back to my school days when heart was pure, but mind was unsure :)
I am really missing this old friend of mine, she was my bus mate and we sat next to each for 2 years. I don't know why...but we alway sat together. I know my side of the story. I sat next to her as she was amongst the coolest and most charming people I had met for a long time. I still remember all those moments I shared with her, when she held my hand, when she hugged me, when she used to give me those beaming smiles....

I am still in touch with her, its been 6 years since we left school and I still feel she is the girl I have loved the most ever.

Chemistry

2007-10-25T00:20:00.000-07:00

I want my post to be entirely written by me, without any copy paste. But I would love to share a very sweet poem inspired by school chemistry. It really reminds me of my school days when I used to day dream of all the beautiful girls in my school (and there were plenty) while sitting in the chemistry class.

Miss you DPS RK Puram girls, you are the best!!!

Na Ye Chemistry Hoti ,
Na Mein Student Hota
Na Ye Lab Hoti,
Na Ye Accident Hota

Abhi Practical Mein Aaye Nazar Ek Ladki
Sundar Thi Naak Uski Test Tube Jaisi
Baton Mein Uski Glucose Ki Mithas Thi
Sanson Mein Ester Ki Khushbu Bhi Sath Thi

Aankhon Se Jhalakta Tha
Kuch Is Taranh Ka Pyaar
Bin Piye Hi Ho Jata Tha
Alcohol Ka Khumar

Benzene Sa Hota Tha
Uski Presence Ka Ehsas
Andhere Mein Hota Tha
Radium Ka Abhas

Nazrein Mileen, Reaction Hua
Kuch Is Taranh Love Ka Production Hua
Lagne Lage Us Ke Ghar Ke Chakkar Aise
Nucleus Ke Charon Taraf Electron Hon Jaise

Us Din Hamare Test Ka Confirmation Hua
Jab Uske Daddy Se Hamara Introduction Hua
Sun Kar Hamari Baat Woh Aise Uchal Pare
Ignition Tube Mein Jaise Sodium Bharak Uthe

Woh Bole, Hosh Mein Aao, Pahchano Apni Auqat
Iron Mil Nahin Sakta Kabhi Gold Ke Sath
Ye Sun Kar Tuta Hamare Armanon Bhara Beaker
Aur Hum Chup Rahe Benzaldehyde Ka Karwa Ghoont Pi Kar

Ab Us Ki Yaadon Ke Siwa Hamara Kam Chalta Na Tha
Aur Lab Mein Hamare Dil Ke Siva Kuch Aur Jalta Na Tha
Zindagi Ho Gayee Unsaturated Hydrocarbon Ki Taranh
Aur Hum Phirte Hain Awara Hydrogen Ki Tarhan

Feeling Happy

2007-10-25T00:13:00.000-07:00

I am feeling really happy today after creating this blog. I have been tinkering with the options to customize my blog like a 5 year child (after all I have to do justice to my blog name..lol)

The options are pretty amazing and I am trying to create a page which is easy on the eyes and makes for a great read. A big thank you to technology and the virtual world.

ISB ISB ISB

2007-10-24T23:29:00.000-07:00

I have an interview with the Indian School of Business Scheduled on Nov 2, 2007. I am really elated to finally get a chance to present myself to a B-school interview panel. YIPEEEE

I always used to feel that I will be able to crack my b-school interviews with ease, but now with an interview call in hand, I am feeling pretty nervous. On one hand I am trying to remain calm and thinking that I will take the whole thing as an experince, but on the other hand I am thinking of what I can do if I get admission into ISB. I would buy a new bike (hopefully a bullet), go for a couple of holidays (one to Benaras and one abroad), chill out with friends, throw lots of attitude in office, etc, etc.

Well the list seems to be endless. Hopefully everything will go well

First Post Ever

2007-10-24T23:14:00.000-07:00

This my first blog ever and I am pretty excited aboout it. Hopefully I can write some interesting posts and have some regular readers on my page.

This first post is being written by me in the confines of my 14th Floor office in Gurgaon. Many things going on in my mind simultaneously. I wish I could take a looong nap. Feeling really sleepy today after sleeping for just 3 hours yesterday night.
I am also looking forward to attending the open house being conducted by the Asian Institue of Management (AIM), Philippines in CP today. Planning to attend it at 7pm after office.
Seems to be a long day for me....